nidra's

At the end of August my membership at the fitness center was over! I was down to 61 kg. and measurements went down to: chest 92cm (w/breasts), waist 71cm and hips 94cm, I'm so proud of myself and it shows, at the center I was the COA (center of attraction) everybody even the fittest thinnest ladies complemented/applauded my accomplishment... Hey when you put in the effort with hard work, consistency and loving what you're doing you can get any result you want. I am the proof of that for myself, and I promised myself I will never be like I was in the beginning of this year. Im working at home now, starting with the Tibetan Yoga Ive been practicing for a while, and other yoga practices and meditation and also working w/free weights and the theraband exercises which are great by the way, Im also planning to buy one of those big exercise balls. There are all kinds of exercise websites on the net I use those as guidelines and it feels great! My next target weight is 55kg. , I don...

So much has changed since my last posting. Ive been busy with changing my life around starting with how I feel about myself! I had gained some weight and was feeling depressed about my life here, maybe a midlife crisis of sorts I cant tell... Anyway at the beginning of March I started going to a fitness center with an attitude to get back into shape again and did a series of serious diets and I accomplished quite a bit actually. In 4 months I went down 3 sizes and from 74.4 kg to 67.2 kg and my waist from 83cm to 76cm... Im so proud of myself and it really boosts my ego when people notice it and tell me how much I changed in such a short time! Every morning I get up at 6:30 - 7 o clock and Im at the gym at 8:30, right when they open, for 2 hours I'm there to work out extensively, on the treadmill doin the xcountry for 30 mins then work with weights and different machines 1 day for upper body muscles and next day lower body. When I first started I couldnt even get off my back to do...

I was born on a Sunday when the church bells were ringing; that's how we figured out the time of my birth actually@13:15, in Alsancak Izmir, so says my mother's aunt Nihal, January 3rd 1960 to a family of 4 as the last comer. I wasn't supposed to "be", but with the hopes that I might be a boy, with a little persuasion from my dad, my mom agreed to keep me: alas there I was, a third girl. Previous girls were already Nilgun 6 and Nesli 4 years old. Basically what I remember from my childhood is all good memories, I don't remember much of Izmir but after the move to Istanbul I have bits & pieces of mind photos : our summer house in Erenköy the first dog we had that I remember: Ivy was her name black silky short haired beautiful hound... We weren't supposed to let her into the house let alone to our room, but some afternoons while we were supposed to take naps we would open the window, dangle the piano's stool outside and climb down either go play ou...